Tuesday, April 11, 2017

I FORGOT TO LOG OFF MLIB


T CALLED ME AT MLIB JUST AS I WAS EATING MY SNACK AT 3.  HE INVITED ME FOR CORNBREAD AND CHILI BEANS AT 4:30.  SO I WENT BACK IN AND SOME PHLIP BITCH USED UP MY MINUTES BECUZ I FORGOT TO LOG OFF.  BUT IT WAS OK. 

I HAD OTHER THINGS TO DO.  I'M CAUGHT UP ON MY READING AND FIGURED OUT THE MYSTERY WORD SEARCH.  AND THERE IS A WHEEL FOR CANDY, PENS FOR LIBRARY WEEK OR MONTH.

MOLTO BENE

Monday, April 10, 2017

i bought and baked

$ANC HAD ORANGE CINNABONS.  AND I REDEEMED FREE SFWY SALAD, WHOLE KERNEL CORN.  LUCKY'S HAD PORK CHOPS, I'M SITTING PRETTY.  TYGJ.

I MISS THE $.99 POTATOES.  THEY WERE SO GOOD.

Thursday, March 30, 2017

NOT SO FANTASTIC BEASTS



MAYBE I WAS EXPECTING A FUNNIER, SMARTER MOVIE.  OK, I WAS.  I'M DISAPPOINTED.  IT WAS TOO PREDICTABLE AND DARK. 


TYGJ FOR THE EARLY RAIN AS SPRINKLES AND HURRICANE WIND THAT WAITED.  T IS SUPPOSED TO COME TODAY.  WE'LL SEE. 


LIFE IS GOOD AND GETTING BETTER.  POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS.  KEEP LOOKING UP.



Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

i forgot allergies

I'M NOT ALLERGIC TO COW MILK.  I JUST FEEL BETTER ON COCONUT.  EVEN SOY IS NOT AS GOOD. 

THE WIND IS BLOWING EVERYTHING AROUND  AND UP MY NOSE. 

I'M OK.

MY SHOULDERS FEEL BETTER TODAY FROM SUNDAY'S CACTUS CUTTING.

Monday, March 27, 2017

ALL CIRCUITS BUSY

I forgot to close the front door.  I REALIZED WHEN A MOSQUITO WAS BUZZING AROUND THIS AM. 


I FORGOT TO ADD $ TO MY CHECKING FRIDAY WHEN I SENT IN DENTAL. I REMEMBERED LAST NIGHT B4 FALLING ASLEEP.  WHEN I CALLED FROM SRS THE LINES ARE BUSY.  I COULD CALL FROM MY PHONE TO CHECK.  NAH.


I HAD A PRETTY GOOD WEEKEND.  FRIDAY DESSERT W/T.  HE CONFESSED 90% OF THE TIME WE GET ALONG FINE.  HE WANTED ME TO TEST DRIVE HIS CAR.  HE THINKS IT'S PULLING TO THE RIGHT.  IT SEEMED FINE TO ME.  I DROVE TO PARIS BAKERY, LAWRENCE SQUARE.  I HAD FOUR PCS.  I BOUGHT SOME TOO.


SATURDAY I TOOK MY TIME AT SRS AND GOT TACO BELL FOR LUNCH AT MLIB.  HUNG OUT WATCHING DVD AND GOT MY TAXES DONE IN HALF AN HOUR.  THE RECHECK TOOK AN HOUR CUZ SHE HADN'T DONE IT BEFORE AND WANTED TO FLIRT WITH ERIC MY PREPARER.  I OWE FEDS $100 AND STATE $35.  I GOT VOUCHERS TO MAIL IT IN.


SUNDAY I WENT G2,  SFWY 3 TRIPS PAPER, BEST TEA 2 REESES HEARTS NEW BOX 3 HR LOGS $8.50.  THEN LOOKED ALL OVER OSH FOR GOLD TOMATOES.  I ENDED BUYING VOLCANIC ROCK FOR POTTING WITH MY 10% COUPON.  LOOKED THROUGH NEWSPAPER AND DID MONOPOLY.  THEN I WENT TO LUCKY'S TO USE PHONE AND LOOK AT CLEARANCE.  THEY HAD GOLD PEAR TOMATOES 6/$3.49 AND NUTMEG AND GINGER.  I CAME HOME AND DECIDED NO LIBRARY.  I FELT GOOD AFTER LUNCH AND CUT CACTUS WITH NEW SHEETROCK SAW. 


SO MY ARM AND BLADES ARE SORE.  AND I HAD A VOMIT DREAM THAT WOKE ME UP AT 4AM.  I WAS AT DELLA'S AND SHE MADE SQUASH AND CORN WITH UNDERCOOKED ONIONS.  AND WHEN I AWOKE I WAS ACTUALLY NAUSEOUS.



Saturday, March 25, 2017

ALLERGY TO MILK



SINCE CHANGING TO COCONUT I FEEL BETTER. 


I TRIED MILK AND I CAN FEEL THE DIFF.







Wednesday, March 15, 2017

BETTER

I MANAGED NOT TO BE SICK.  I BABIED MYSELF AND I'M FEELING BETTER. 


I DREAMED OF CHEVY CHASE AND HE SAID HIS B'DAY IS XMAS 1999.  I'LL BE 18.  I'LL HAVE TO THINK ABOUT HIM BEING MY ALTER EGO. 


THE CHILD IN ME IS SO TIRED OF TAKING CARE OF EVERYONE ELSE.  I DON'T WANT TO TAKE CARE OF ANYONE BUT ME.



Tuesday, March 14, 2017

SANS BELT-FEELING LOST

SLEPT 10-12:44 STOMACHE.  MY DOING.  IT WAS HOT 78 SO I STAYED SRS 'TIL 5:45 SANS BELT, PUZZLING.  WORTH IT.  TOOK 2 KAVA AND SLEPT 4-5-6:30.  READ CUZ THE DVD WOULDN'T LOAD.  MY LEGS ARE SO STIFF AND SORE.  FEELING OLD TOO.


TODAY IS HOT 80 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO.  LIBRARY CAMPBELL, MAIN.  OR HOME. 


T CALLED AND LEFT MESSAGE.  I FORGOT MY PHONE AT HOME YESTERDAY.  HE MAY PLANT SECOND LILAC TODAY. 


I THOUGHT ABOUT RETIRING SOC SEC.  I GUESS I HAVE A LOT TO CONSIDER.  AND THE CHANGES TO MY LIFE.  MY HOUSE.  MY WORK. 


ST JUST SUNDAY WAS GOOD.  CORNED BEEF PLENTY, CABBAGE, BABY CARROTS, HALF POTATO.  ST PADDY'S DAY EARLY.


SO MANY SENIORS HAVE POOR HEARING AND EYESIGHT.  I THINK WE'RE TO LEARN LISTENING TO THE INNER VOICE.



Saturday, March 11, 2017

GROWING UP IS HARD



BIG CHILDREN RARELY HAVE A CHILDHOOD.  EVERYONE EXPECTS THEM TO ACT OLDER THAN THEY ARE. 


AND KIDS NOWADAYS HAVE NO CHILDHOOD.  THEY'RE EXPECTED TO KNOW EVERYTHING.  POOR UNDEVELOPED BRAINS. 


I WOULDN'T BE YOUNGER FOR ANYTHING.  NOT MONEY.  MAYBE HEALTH THOUGH.  IF I COULD BE IN GREAT PHYSICAL CONDITION INSTEAD OF RELIVING MY CHILDHOOD I'D PROBABLY JUST LIVE AND FORGET THE INTROSPECTION. 


SOCRATES' UNEXAMINED LIFE CAN JUST BE FUN?  MAYBE THAT'S WHAT HE MEANT.  AN UNEXAMINED LIFE MAY BE DOOMED TO CRASH AND BURN.  I DID.  I DIDN'T THINK OF THE RESULTS OF CARING FOR MY PARENTS AND FINDING OUT THE FAMILY SECRETS AND HAVING TO REJECT DENIAL AS AN EFFECTIVE COPING DEVICE UNLIKE MY SISSES. 

I DIDN'T CONSIDER THE FALLOUT.



Saturday, March 4, 2017

DOUGLAS ADAMS 2016



I CAN'T QUITE ACCEPT YET I FOUND THE DVD FIRST.  IT'S LIKE I'VE BEEN LIVING THE SYNCHRONICITY LIFE.  WHAT IF HE WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE BEFORE HITCHHIKER MOVIE KILLED HIM?  I WAS SO SAD HE DIED BEFORE IT CAME OUT.  IT REALLY WAS A MESS.  IT PROBABLY SHOULD HAVE BEEN A SERIES OF FILMS.  THE TV SERIES WAS BETTER EVEN IF IT WAS CHEESY.


SPEAKING OF CHEESY, I HAD POTATO CHEESE SOUP FROM BEAR CREEK MIX DELLA MADE AND IT WAS DELICIOUS.  JUST ADD WATER.  THE SOURCE OF ALL LIFE.


AND WITH TECHNOLOGY NOW THE APPEARANCE OF LIFE IS INFINITE WITH MOTION CAPTURE AND COMPUTERS.







I'M LIKING MY LIFE SOMETIMES. 

Saturday, February 25, 2017

STILL LAZARUS


I'M BIDING MY TIME.  THE WEATHER IS WARM, SUNNY, ALL AROUND AWESOME.  MY BODY IS STILL TEACHING ME. 

I READ ABOUT THE LAZARUS EFFECT.  RISING FROM THE DEAD.  DYING TO THE PAST.  AN ARTICLE IN DAILY WORD FOR NEXT MONTH, MARCH. 

SHE JUST HAD THE FLU.

I'VE BEEN THERE YEARS AGO. 

NOW FOR A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT LIFE. 

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

LUCID DREAM

A WEEK OF TORTURE TO GENTLE ME TO ACCEPTANCE.  I WANT TO DO IT DIFFERENTLY.


BRIGHT LIGHTS.  I'M MIA (ME*A) FARROW (GIVE BIRTH TO PIGS) AS A CHILD HOLDING BLUE GLADIOLAS, THE ONLY THING TO DEFLECT GHOSTS.  THE BLUE=SAD, THE GLADIOLAS=GLAD.  I CAN SEE GHOSTS.  SHE'S A LATCH KEY KID LIKE ME.  POWERLESS ACTING MOM.


A BACK DOOR SOLUTION.  THE CONVOLUTED PATH TO ENLIGHTENMENT WITHOUT FREAKING OUT.  I'VE BEEN SO STUBBORN(MIDDLE ENGLISH, STY BORN, PIGS AGAIN).  WHY DO THEY ASSUME PIGS ARE INTRACTABLE?  LIKE MULES.




SECOND DREAM MIKE E BATHROOM, I FLUSH FILTH DOWN TOILET.  EXORCIST.


DREAMS ARE THE REAL ENERGY SOURCE AND THIS WORLD IS THE SHADOW.  DREAMS ARE VISITS TO THE WORLD WE CAME FROM AND ARE GOING BACK TO HOPEFULLY EVOLVED.  WE DREAM TO RESOLVE AND READY FOR THE TRANSITION BACK.


DELORISE LUCAS WANTED ME TO USE MY ORDINATION.  APRIL 1, NOT A JOKE.


DROPPED THE CEREAL BOWL AND BROKE.  I DIDN'T CARE.  I SWEPT UP THE POWDERED MILK AND TOSSED THE PIECES. 


I'M OK.


AND GETTING BETTER.  EXORCISING THE GHOSTS IN MY LIFE.  THEIR DISTRACTING INFLUENCE. 

Friday, February 17, 2017

TWEEN



THIS A M I DREAMED OF MY TEENAGE DAUGHTER.  I'M RE-RAISING MYSELF AND I'M RECONNECTING WITH MYSELF IN NEW WAYS.


I'M TESTING MYSELF TO CONTINUE TO FUNCTION IN NEW WAYS. 


SO FAR, SO GOOD.  MINOR ATTENTION LAPSES.  NOTHING NEW, JUST NEW WAYS.


I THINK THE KITCHEN SINK BLOCKAGE IS DUE TO GREASE BUILDUP.  I JUST NEED TO CLEAR IT AND GET AN ESTIMATE ON A NEW GARBAGE DISPOSAL:  DISPOSALL.


THE SKYLIGHT IS DRY AS THE DESERT IN SUMMER.



Thursday, February 16, 2017

PROCESSING THE SADNESS AND DEPRESSION

MY CHILDHOOD WAS FEAR AND ANXIETY.  I LIVED ANTICIPATING DEATH.  I DIDN'T WANT TO BE THERE.

WHEN MT WAS GOING TO RUN AWAY FROM HOME IN '58 I WASN'T SURPRISED.  I WONDER IF IT WAS AFTER MK CHASED A AROUND THE HOUSE BEATING HER WITH A BROOM.  THE OLD STYLE HEAVY BROOM.  THE YELLING, SCREAMING, CRYING IS STILL INSIDE ME.  THE CRUELTY.  

I AVOIDED THINKING OR FEELING.  ALWAYS.  I SHUT DOWN COMPLETELY.

IN ORDER TO CREATE WHAT I WANT I HAVE TO CLEAN HOUSE.  THE HOUSE REALLY IS A REFLECTION OF THE INTERIOR. 

WOW.  THE E-MOTION.  ENERGY IN MOTION.



Friday, February 10, 2017

TYGJ



YESTERDAY THE ROOF STARTED LEAKING 10 MIN AFTER I GOT HOME.  SO I WAS ABLE TO RELAX AND REORIENT BEFORE THE ORDEAL. 


I HATE THE HOUSE FOR WHAT IT REPRESENTS.  THE DISRESPECT, HUMILIATION, DISCOUNTING, MELODRAMA.


IT'S IRRATIONAL AND NOT THE HOUSE'S FAULT. 






I PICKED UP MISS PEREGRINE DVD MLIB AND IT'S QUESTIONABLE. 







Thursday, February 9, 2017

STATS


I HAVE VIEWERS IN FRANCE, LATVIA, RUSSIA, PORTUGAL, ITALY.  HELLO!!..  THIS BLOGGING IS INCREDIBLE.  I STARTED IT BECAUSE IT MAY BE THE ONLY IMMORTALITY I HAVE.  AS LONG AS THE INTERNET EXISTS ANYWAY. 

THE NIGERIAN COMMENT WENT AWAY.

I PICKED UP AUSTRALIA.

PAKISTAN AND LITHUANIA.

UK.  BRAZIL.  INDONESIA + SPAIN.


UGH!! I CHECKED OUT THE WEBSITES AND PORN!!







Tuesday, February 7, 2017

FEELING CHILDLIKE-STORMY WEATHER


AWOKE THIS A M TO A POND IN THE KITCHEN.  FRIDAY I LEFT BUCKET IN PLACE, JUST IN CASE.  IT WAS LEAKING IN TWO NEW SPOTS DOWN FROM EDGE OF SKYLIGHT.  ALONG MOISTURE LINE.  AND A SECOND DRIP FOUR INCHES ALONG SEAM LINE. 

MUCH MORE WATER.

SCOTT FROM SKYLIGHTS HASN'T CALLED BACK.  HE MAY BE TRAPPED IN SANTA CRUZ WITH THE FLOODING. 

I CALLED SCOTT YESTERDAY TO REPORT ON SUNDAY RAIN LEAKING.  AGAIN.  LIKE TWO WEEKS AGO.  ALWAYS STARTS SUNDAY. 

THE PROBLEMS DAD HAD WITH HIS FLUORESCENT LIGHT INSTALLATION FOR YEARS CAME FROM MOISTURE IN THE SKYLIGHT INTERFERING WITH THE FUNCTIONING. 

SYMBOLIC OF THE FAMILY DYFUNCTION.  WHERE'S THE FUN IN DYS?


I NEED TO DRAG THEM ALONG.  I DON'T HAVE TO LEAVE THEM BEHIND.  WHERE WOULD BE THE FUN IN THAT. 

Monday, February 6, 2017

FIND ONE LOSE ONE

FRIDAY-3 I WAS MISSING ONE HEMATITE STRETCH WHEN I GOT HOME.  TODAY I ASKED AT THE FRONT DESK AND I ACTUALLY LOST IT WED-1.  I GUESS IN ALL THE BANK AND BILL PAYING.


THIS WEEKEND HAS BEEN PHYSICALLY ROUGH.  1972 FALL AND FALLOUT.  LEFT LEG AND ARM HAVE BEEN PAINFUL.  THE HOTTUB HELPS.  AND KNOWING THE CAUSE.  OH AND I HAVE A BOIL ON MY RT BUM. 


I'M RECOMMITING TO QUITTING SMOKE AND THE FAM. 


WHAT TO PUT IN THE VACUUM??



Wednesday, February 1, 2017

NAP THERAPY-IT WORKS



IT'S SUPPOSED TO RAIN AND I'M FEELING HYPER.  I'M JAZZED THAT I FINALLY FOUND THE BATTERY TESTER.  I THOUGHT IT PUT IT AWAY WITH THE ELECTRICALS.  I ONLY THOUGHT IT. 


YESTERDAY I COULDN'T FIND THE COUNTY LIB BOOK BAG FOR AN HOUR.  I WENT AND LOOKED AT MY CAR MILEAGE LOG AND SAW I WENT TO THE CUP LIB AFTER THE LAUNDRY.  I WENT INTO THE HOUSE THROUGH THE GARAGE AND THERE IT WAS PATIENTLY WAITING WHERE I LEFT IT, HAVING ADMONISHED MYSELF TO REMEMBER, I FORGOT.


SO I'M ELATED.



Friday, January 27, 2017

KNOWING WHEN I'M TIRED-NOT MAKING MISTAKES


I STILL HAVEN'T LEARNED TO FEEL TIRED YET.  IT'S ONLY A QUESTION OF TIME.  I'M CHECKING IN WITH MYSELF MORE. 

HAVING  THE ABILITY BEATEN OUT OF ME MAKES IT HARD TO REPROGRAM.  THE FEAR AND PHYSICAL REACTIONS NEED TO BE DEALT WITH. 

YESTERDAY A CARKEY CAME OFF THE CLIP.  OH, WELL.  IT MIGHT STILL BE AROUND AT HOME OR IN THE CAR. 

UPDATE TUE. 31.  I FOUND IT YESTERDAY.  SUNDAY AFTER MLIB I TOTALLY CLEANED OUT THE CAR AND STILL IT ELUDED ME.  YESTERDAY A.M IT WAS LYING ON THE FLOOR OF THE PASSENGER SIDE. 

Sunday, January 15, 2017

TODDLER SLEEP PATTERNS


YESTERDAY I PULLED SOME WEEDS TO CHECK THE SATURATION.  IT'S PERFECT.

LAST NIGHT I COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP UNTIL 12.  I SLEPT TIL 6:11.  ATE CHICK SOUP, YUMM.  I'M DOING WHAT I WANT TO DO.  I ADDED POTATOES, ONIONS AND LOTS OF CELERY.  THE MEATLOAF AT SRS HAD CELERY, DELICIOUS.  I LOVE CELERY. 

CBS SUN MORN HAD NOTHING.  IT WAS SO COLD MY SINUSES FROZE.  I HAD TO KEEP COVERING MY FACE.  I NEED A SLEEP HAT OR BALACLAVA. 

I CAME TO THE LIBRARY TO PHONE PCH AND HANG OUT.  I TWICE FORGOT THE EARS TO WATCH DVDS ON THE COMPUTER.  I ATE AN APPLE, FILLED H2O, SORTED PAPER

Saturday, January 14, 2017

TERRIBLE TWOS


YESTERDAY I WENT MILPITAS.  COULDN'T FIND STAMP FOR PCH ENTRY.  STOPPED AT AGNEW PO AND LOST $5.64 STAMPS OF NEW YR ROOSTER-DAD.  BYE-BYE DAD.  BOUGHT & USED WONDERWOMAN $9.40

LAFEYETTE GOES THROUGH ALVISO TO FIRST ST. AND FREE CHICK-FIL-A.  THE CARD FROM THE LIBRARY READING PROGRAM.  I GOT TO CHOOSE GRILLED CHICKEN ON WHOLE WHEAT, TOMATO, LETTUCE.  YUM!!

CAUGHT 237 TO SAVERS 2TIGHTS $2.25 EA NEW-MICRO-DEHYDRATOR $4, GREAT MALL BBB FOLD UP WALKING CANE CHAIR$13, SC BBB 3 LEGGINGS, WHEW!!!!

I'M SLEEPING AND EATING LIKE A CHILD; ANSWERS THE DIGESTION DILEMMA.

LAST NITE I AWOKE AT 12, AND TWO -PEE.  STAYED UP WATCHING AB/FAB DVD.  I MADE OATMEAL AND ATE.  FELL ASLEEP 5-7.  STARTED GETTING READY NOT KNOWING WHAT I WANTED TO DO WEARING NEW SAVERS TIGHTS.  DID I WANT $ANC? SRS? G-2? SAVERS?

REMEMBERED I NEEDED PETROL, COSTCO.  HIGHER PRICE MLK HOLDAY MONDAY.  I WENT SRS.  WELSUN GAVE ME PBJ.

I'M FINALLY LIVING JUST ME.



Wednesday, January 11, 2017

IS IT THE FULL MOON OR?



I'M FEELING RRESTLESS.  FOR THE MOST PART OF ME I'M OK.  I FEEL A LITTLE ANXIOUS OR UNSATISFIED. 


I KNOW FROM EXPERIENCE I'M GOING THROUGH A CHANGE.  I FEEL A CHANGE.