aug/1999

I FINALLY CRIED FOR DAD TODAY.  I HAVEN'T FOR 18 YEARS.

HIS LAST YEAR WAS EVEN HARDER THAN I THOUGHT POSSIBLE. 

A SET UP TAKING MOM TO TAHOE AND WASN'T GOING TO TELL DAD.  SO I TOLD HIM SO HE COULD GET OVER HIS ABANDONMENT BEFORE THEY LEFT AND MOM COULD TALK TO HIM ABOUT IT.  A SET UP HER CHAIN OF MANIPULATIONS TO GET HIM TO AGREE TO ACUPUNCTURE AND HER CHIROPRACTOR IN SOUTH SAN JOSE WINFIELD MALL.  I TOLD HER DR. GAIL HERE AT O'CONNER'S WAS BETTER AND CLOSER BUT SHE INSISTED AND MOM WENT ALONG WITH HER.  SETTING UP DAD'S PAINFUL DEATH, SEPT 5, 1999.