Friday, March 20, 2020

CINDER ELLA

I'M LIVING IN THE ASHES OF THE PAST.  I DON'T KNOW WHEN I HAD MY LAST SMOKE.  MY CHILDHOOD IN THIS HOUSE WAS TAKING CARE OF 4 OTHERS ALWAYS PUTTING MYSELF LAST.  SACRIFICING EVERYTHING TO AVOID PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE.

AND THE VIRUS IS DOING IT TO EVERYONE.  REAL LIFE EQUALITY.  EVERYTHING IS SHUT DOWN.  EVERYONE ISOLATED.

I ALMOST FORGOT TOMORROW EX' BIRTHDAY.  AILEEN SAID SHE AND EX WERE THE SAME.  I DENIED IT.  SHE WAS ACCURATE.  I SHOULD HAVE LISTENED.  I ALWAYS FELT SORRY FOR HER.  WHAT SHE DID TO ME MOM DID TO HER.  EX ACTLY THE SAME.

I JUST DID NLP EXERCISE.  I PUT AILEEN ON ONE HAND AND EX ON THE OTHER AND CLAPPED THEM TOGETHER, BLEW THEM AWAY.  I PUT MITZI ON MY RIGHT HAND, MOM AND DAD ON THE LEFT AND CLAPPED THEM TOGETHER AND BLEW THEM AWAY.

MY EX MARRIAGE WAS THE EXTENSION OF THE FAMILY ABUSE.

UNITY DAILY WORD FORGIVENESS.  EVER DAY A CHANCE TO START FRESH.


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