ERIC'S DAY

I'M FEELING UPSET.  MY HURT FEELINGS.  I'VE HAD TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF SINCE I WAS 8 SO I GUESS I'M TOUGH.  AND THOSE TRYING TO PICK ON ME, SCAPEGOAT ME FOR THE FIRST TIME HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES AND ARE FLOUNDERING TRYING TO GUILT SOMEONE INTO TAKING CARE OF THEM. 

ROSE V WENT THROUGH TWO HUSBANDS AND THE DOCTORS HAVE GIVEN UP ON HER CANCER DAUGHTER.  SHE HAS AN ODD WAY OF ASKING FOR HELP WITHOUT BEING OBLIGED.  PEOPLE HAVE TO DIE TO GET AWAY FROM HER.  SHE'S SO UNGRATEFUL.

FUNNY HOW I CAN SEE IT SO CLEARLY IN OTHER FAMILIES.  ROSE T DID IT TO ERIC.  HE WORKED HIMSELF TO DEATH TO PAY HER RENT WITH CANCER THE LAST 5 YEARS.  I FEEL SO SAD TO WITNESS AND NOT BE ABLE TO CURE HIM.  NOT MY BUSINESS.  I'M PRAYING FOR ALL OF US.

SINCE 8 YRS OLD

OK I GET CRANKY.  I'VE BEEN MAKING THE BEST OF MY LIFE.  IT TAKES HARD WORK AND DILIGENCE.

AND OTHERS GET JEALOUS.  LOU FERRIGNO FOR ONE AND JENN.  THEY EXPECT EVERYTHING TO BE HANDED TO THEM.

OLD TIMERS DON'T STAY LATE BECAUSE THE NUTS FALL OUT OF THE TREES.   REMEMBER THAT WOMAN WHO INSISTED I TREATED HER LIKE I HATED HER WHEN I'D NEVER SEEN HER BEFORE.  SHE WOULDN'T IDENTIFY HERSELF OR WHERE SHE THOUGHT SHE KNEW ME AND HAS NEVER BEEN BACK.

AND TODAY A WOMAN WHO INTERRUPTED MY CONVERSATION WITH GERDA TO TELL ME I'M WRONG HAD HER FEELINGS HURT I GUESS BY MY COMMENT THAT EVERY SENIOR IS AN EXPERT ON EVERYTHING.  WENT CRYING TO LOU FERRIGNO SO HE CAME TO ASK WHAT HAPPENED.  WE HAD NO IDEA.

MY FEELINGS WERE HURT WHEN SHE RUDELY INTERRUPTED ME TO SAY I WAS WRONG WHEN I WAS SIMPLY RELATING WHAT THE REPORT WAS.

OR ALMITA COMMENTING ON MY FAMILY BEING LOW CLASS OR HER CALLING GINNY A DONKEY.

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"LET'S DO SOMETHING.'  NOT.  I'M FEELING WONDERFULLY BORED. 

I REALIZED MOST OF MY CHILDHOOD WAS AWAKENING TO TERROR.  I DON'T KNOW IF IT WAS THE SCARY FAMILY OR AUTISM OR BOTH.

SO THINGS LIKE HIKE, BIKE, BUILD A FORT, BAKE A CAKE, SAIL, SCULPT, VOLUNTEER, SEW, SKATE, SLEEP, STUDY, TRAVEL, WEAVE, WHITTLE, WATCH TV, BOWL, HAVE A PARTY, ETC, HAVE NO APPEAL.
BEEN THERE DONE THAT.  I'LL BASK IN DOING NOTHING.  I'M STILL AMUSED TO THINK THE SOUND OF DOING IS FUNNY.  NOT DO-ING.

IT'S A MIRACLE I'VE TURNED OUT AS WELL BALANCED AS I AM.  A SENSE OF HUMOR HELPS.

I UNDERSTAND SENIORS NOT WANTING TO DO ANYTHING. 

I LIKE EXERCISING BECAUSE I ENJOY FEELING GOOD.  GOT TO LUBRICATE THE JOINTS AND WARM UP THE MUSCLES.

SPEAKING UP

FOR MYSELF AND OTHERS.  MOST PEOPLE DON'T.  PUTTING IT OUT THERE THEY MAY SAY NO.  SO WHAT.  I HEARD NO FROM MY FAMILY EVERY DAY. 

TODAY'S TEMP IS SUPPOSED TO BE 100.  I'M NOT GOING OUT TO CHECK.  I HAVE LEFTOVERS FROM LUNCH SO I CAN STAY 'TIL CLOSING, NO JEOPARDY, NBA PLAYOFFS.

 

EMOTIONAL=PHYSICAL

YOU CAN'T RUN FROM YOURSELF.  YOU CAN TRY TO HIDE BUT IT DOESN'T LAST.

THE EMOTIONAL ALWAYS BECOMES PHYSICAL.  I DID TOO MUCH YESTERDAY TO TRY TO AVOID EMOTIONAL PAIN BY CREATING PHYSICAL PAIN.  AND HERE I AM.

I STRETCHED IT OUT AND THE EXTREME 88 o HEAT TODAY HELPS.

I DID MY SUNDAY SHOPPING AND READ THE PAPER FOR A COUPLE HOURS.

I'M LOVING THE SLEEP SHIRTS I BOUGHT AT LOS ALTOS RUMMAGE.  EVERYTHING IS ALREADY DRY FROM WASHING YESTERDAY.

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I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT THEM BUT THERE'S A BUNCH.  27.  I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE THEM GO AWAY SO WE'LL SEE.

I WEEDED FOR AN HOUR. I MUST BE CAREFUL NOT TO OVER DO.  I FEEL PRETTY GOOD.  I ALWAYS FEEL GOOD DOING UNTIL THE NEXT DAY AND THEN THE SECOND DAY I MAY BE SICK.  I THOUGHT OF DOING LAUNDRY BUT (SIGH) ONE THING AT A TIME.  I USED TO GO UNTIL I FINISHED EVERYTHING I WANTED TO DO.  MINDFULNESS TAKES PRACTICE.  AND ALWAYS PUTTING THOUGHTS IN POSITIVE TERMS IS.......I DON'T KNOW.

OH, EMOJIS WENT AWAY.

I STRETCHED AND TUBBED.  PLAYED ON THE PUZZLE AND ATE AN APPLE.  I FELT GOOD AND DECIDED TO GO TO LAFFAYETTE WASH TO CHECK IT OUT.  PLENTY OF PARKING AND NOT TOO HOT WITH THE WIND.  I USED THE CART TO MINIMIZE OVER WORKING MY BACK.  I CHARGED MY CHROME SINCE I FORGOT AT SENIORS.  I PUT EVERYTHING IN ONE MACHINE.  WOW. 

WHEN A SPACE IN FRONT OPENED I MOVED THE CAR.  I DECIDED IF I HADN'T WASHED TO GO TO LIBRARY TO CHARGE.  OPTIONS.  AND THEN I REALIZED I COULD WEAR A WET SHIRT AND SCARF TO STAY EXTRA COOL.  SO PERFECT.  I FELT GOOD. 

2 PM AT HOME I ATE SOME CHIPS AND CHERRIES.  I DRANK A LOT OF WATER.  FELL ASLEEP WATCHING TV.  DINNER WAS LEFTOVER SPAGHETTI & MEAT LUMPS.

GOOD DAY.

BRAIN

ACCORDING TO DEEPAK CHOPRA THE BRAIN DOESN'T DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN LOVING OURSELVES OR LOVING OTHERS.  THE PHYSIOLOGY/CHEMISTRY OF LOVING IS THE SAME NO MATTER THE OBJECT.  NON LINEAR. MORE IMPORTANT TO LOVE THAN BE LOVED.

THE MORE WE LOVE THE HEALTHIER WE BECOME.

THAT'S AT ODDS WITH HARVILLE WHO SAYS HEALING CAN ONLY OCCUR WITHIN A RELATIONSHIP.

MY PHONE IS TURNING ITSELF ON BEFORE THE SETTING.  SO I DON'T KNOW.

MY UTILITIES ACCOUNT IS BACK.  I CAN'T SEE THE USAGE HISTORY BUT I CAN PAY ONLINE AGAIN.  IF IT GOES AWAY AGAIN I'LL GO TO THE OFFICE AGAIN.

I GAVE GERDA THE JUICE AND CHAMOMILE TEA BAG.  SHE WENT AND GOT ANTIBIOTICS AT THE DOCTOR'S.  OLD PEOPLE NEED BETTER HOBBIES. 

I GOT EVERYTHING DONE FOR TODAY.  ALEX GAVE ME NEWS PAPER MY LADIES GAVE ME LEFT OVERS.  I'M SET FOR THE NIGHT.