close but no cigar-finally sanity- tabs disappeared

biden-harris has the votes but trump is still threatening.  trump knew about covid and did nothing and talked the danger down to instill more fear in people.  like hitler trump knew fear filled people are easier to manipulate.  

talking heads on tv haven't touched on trump's racist army.  they're the ones with guns and a lot of them are in law enforcement.  black lives matter, all lives matter are obvious to any/every reasonable person.  not trump.  only white lives matter to trump.  only rich white lives.

i heated potatoes added 2 eggs and cream cheese.  delicious.  i finally cooked krusteaz box lemon squares with last 3 eggs.  i had it $2 clearance at least a year.  too  sweet.  now i know how.  

i made ramen with jerky for dinner.  so good.  i thought of going to lucky's for freebie sparkling ice and paying citibank but feeling tired i read through auntie's letters her birthday 9th, uncle's 4th.  uncle died 4/17, eric 6/17.  i'll make copies of mom dad pictures to send.  

biden-harris won!!  they announced their acceptance most beautifully.  i watched avidly.  i've never enjoyed politics more.  

while watching jamie everything disappeared, all my settings.  took me 45 minutes to get them back.  i did it.   

bringing the light. being the light.

all my relationships have been sharing my light with disbelievers.  pearls before swine.  

my purpose is to shine.  i finally know my purpose.

when i was 16 and my fellow students were deciding on careers carolyn marine biologist etc, all i could determine was wise.   

i finally realized hanging my covid mask by the elastic is stretching one side.  i have to hang it from the body of the mask.  

also i release the trunk latch for lunch pick up only when the engine running or i drain battery from trunk light.  one time in old car it sat overnight, dead battery next morning.

showered.  contemplated 24 arques stayed home.  senior lunch line 10;23 #12 car a new record.  walked park disposed garbage.  i've decided to leave senior garbage at seniors.  did my stretching 12 minutes still upset my tummy.  

faith

 with the bushes i worried and we survived.  i had my passport ready.  (auto saved)  

watching mary reilly i'm exorcising my demons.  mom, alien, nit.  dead to me.  alien was always laughing saying didn't i remember her burning me with matches sticking me with pins when i was a baby.  no i only remember mom putting incense on my hand, lighting it.  if i moved when it burned me we started over.  or mom hitting me and screaming when we were watching tv, mom thought it so funny to scare me.  like the child abuse in the film.  historically accurate.

i can feel cold through my shoulder blades

never before in my life.  i'm feeling things i've never felt before.  

trump is systematically terrorizing the usa.  covid and racism are tools for him to use to distract people from how he's manipulating the stock market.   he's been using intimidation his entire life and is very expert at bullying.

says published but it isn't

the time and date stamp says published but it isn't until the publish icon turns into update.

i let go yesterday and handled everything.  tygj.  then the little cloud appears.  with a strike through means i need to update.  why a cloud?

i prefer this time daylight saving time.  enough light to maneuver.  

walked sprouts clearance priced glucosamine $25.  went to target asked ac cord none glucosamine $18.  i'm worth it and discover 5% reward no hassle.   

54 o seniors line 10;08 #7 car i walked and stretched.  fat perv is using my routine.  wore tennis shoes walked circumference of center.  shepherds purse sprayed with weed killer oh. well.  stretched on bars.   

i brought in secret cd instead of moving it back and forth.  i just have to remember to put it back in car.  good old justin fixed renewals on chrome this is 3.   

pain is exhausting

oh my shoulders and pelvis.  must be the constant communication.  the messaging burns calories.  ouchy. 

i'm doing what i can.  bought 4 chips $tore.  proceeded to seniors.  i took cd and dvd from county in case i felt like picking up my 2 holds.  sitting in senior lunch line i remembered i needed to do banking.  oops.  i had filled out ballot night before and wrote check for life insurance.  dropped off at kiely mission post office on to chase only one atm through road repair.  drove direct to star one deposit urmila teller.  perfect, early enough easy route.  still had an hour for library to open so checked out safe way 2 bottles bragg amino acids $2.49 ea clearance.  ate half turkey pot pie biscuit best part.  it's sad when the best part is the biscuit.  

reasonable clerk checked in and checked out secret cd.  i returned ayahuasca dvd.  i self checked 2 movies on new equipment.  everything new today.  i felt so optimistic i went $v 2 bottles h 202, oven pan, blond floor mat for kitchen.  i want to try the light weight mats in the car.  

got home 2 pm felt more like 4-5 i accomplished so much.   

what to do-dst

i feel ok.  yesterday talking was too exciting.  no wonder i never talked at home besides the constant humiliation.  

i feel sorry that my sisters treat me so badly for their sake.  they're treating their dna the way they will treat themselves.  i know alien abuses her kids.  nit probably does too.  i know nit's boys were terrified of vampires.  when they were in grade school they asked for crucifixes for christmas because of vampires despite the fact they lived in the garlic capitol of the world.  nit was the vampire.  

i know i'm thinking and feeling accurately when i get the shivers.   reprogramming the house is working.  last night i harvested 6 allergy leaves so easily.  someone has been walking around the backyard.  the weeds are tramped down.  the ivy and privet are taking over, the allergy is doing ok.  kind of amazing it's growing in spots it never did before 30 years.  

i want to share allergy plant.  herbal lore.