I'll try again

Sunday I remembered Church in the park at 9 am.  I hadn't decided to go until 10 I suddenly dressed, loaded extra pantry food in car and arrived shortly after 10:30 start time.  remarkably well done.  the service was mostly live music with lyrics.  my karaoke church.  

lunch at noon choice of hot dog or chicken I couldn't decide and had dog without bun.  relish and grain mustard was perfect with bow tie pasta salad diced cucumber, tomatoes, cheese Italian dressing.  games of kids sack race, ladies spoon, team tug of war reminded me of Hawaii county fair games and malasadas.  oh so good.  

90 degrees I decided a shower would be nice.  I considered libraries.  I took my time checked big lots 99 cent shelves a mess.

they taught me to be powerless

I'm changing the program.  Sprouts clearance turkey sandwich $1.99.  i ate half so full multi grain romaine lettuce tomato sliced roasted turkey.  I gave half to Sydney.  I puzzled, showered and puzzled more.  at 11 I drove to St Just for pantry.  Charity gave me lunch.  I so enjoyed the Cheetos.  I decided I can toss or share.

Bartolo had a yard sale when I drove by 7:30 am.  mostly tools.  

i'm actually enjoying myself.  I shared main puzzle with young female possible Asperger's.  we finished it.

doing what i want

5 bags of low salt Lay's potato chips.  Buy 2 get 3 free.  so 5 for $11.98 or $2.40 each.  I decided no Safeway Reser's salad.  college only had mac.

my allergies started when I started smoking at 18.  I unconsciously missed dad's second hand smoke.  I was forced out because I couldn't lie like my sisters.  so when my body detoxes i may not have allergies.  my sinuses are clearing.  

tv reception is terrible.  heat and shifting winds.  i searched online Car Pick for registration tags.  i went but they'd gone to the DMV.  it's a hidden paradise gem.  

practicing forgiveness

I forgive myself first.   auto update is on.

real freedom

I did afternoon swim.  different people to watch, more relaxed, 2 half hours.  I showered morning, lunched, puzzled and relaxed.  i'm flashing back to 2017-18.  

2's day

5 am sudden short downpour.  I went out to check windows up and used 5 bottles of water to wash off mud.

I found Saturday cherries in the trunk still good.  I didn't remember them.  I wondered what I did with them.   

and I noticed Bartolo took down the last of the front fence.  I must have been totally exhausted yesterday.  I got home at 3 pm.  just seniors and home.  my back has been excruciating like 1972.  

Fred has COVID.  I may have it and why my hip and back is crazy.  

90 degree day I picked up Peter rabbit 2 at mission and cooled it main.

6 pm.  time for home.  I brought cheese cubes and cocktail weenies for b'fast and snack.

nob hill 7 am

i'm feeling restless.  Walter is riled up.  I reminded him i'm here to relax.  every time he plays his tape he reinforces his tragedy.  relating facts without energy or with blessing rewrites the future.