The good news is my back is better. Last week was S.Clara cleanup. Tomas and I carried the bed in from the garage. Three hours. Took me all week to recover and I didn't get sick. Uncomfortable but not sick.
The bad news is I'm feeling more emotionally. Without the distraction of the physical pain the anxiety and deep sadness around dad's death are with me. So I've been feeling and processing. I'm being kind to myself. Bought smokes and self-medicating and meditating. And practising not judging myself. That's a Very Big one.
Haven't checked my emails in months. Feels like work but I'd better keep them alive. Hope I can remember how to get in.