Wednesday, February 21, 2018

feeling fragile

I'M STILL FEELING ALLERGIC.  AND I'M STILL BABYING MYSELF.  IT FEELS SO WEIRD.  I'M JUST NOT USED TO TAKING IT EASY.  FORCING MYSELF IS SO FAMILIAR WITH THE FAMILY FORCING ME.  A BAD HABIT.  LEARNED BEHAVIOR I'M UNLEARNING.  THE BEHAVIOR KEPT ME SICK FOR SO LONG.  THEY NEVER CARED FOR ME AND TAUGHT ME TO CARE FOR THEM AND NOT MYSELF.

IT'S BEEN SO EMOTIONALLY PAINFUL TO ACCEPT THE TRUTH.  IT WILL SET YOU FREE IF THE PAIN DOESN'T KILL YOU.

I CAN UNDERSTAND DENIAL.  IT MAY BE CRAZY.  DENIAL AVOIDS EMOTIONAL PAIN.  EVENTUALLY THE BODY PAYS THE PRICE.




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