Sunday, September 9, 2018

12 TO 5:30

FRED ROGERS-AMERICA'S GOOD DAD.  I'M STILL LETTING GO OF MY DISAPPOINTMENT WITH MY DAD.  AMERICA HAD A GOOD DAD TO BALANCE THE VIETNAM WAR, CONSUMERISM.  VIET NAM WAS THE SELFISH WAR TO MAINTAIN THE MONETARY INTERESTS OF COLONIALISM.  I THANK GOD FOR THE BALANCE.

I WAS NEVER ALLOWED TO HAVE FEELINGS.  I WAS TAUGHT TO SUPPRESS MY FEELINGS.  THE FAMILY EVILS WERE ALLOWED TO EXPRESS THEIR FEELINGS ALL OVER ME AND I JUST HAD TO STOICALLY TAKE IT.  I DIDN'T HAVE A CHOICE.  MY LIFE DEPENDED ON BEING AS INVISIBLE AS POSSIBLE.  AND NOW MY STOMACH AND BACK ARE RELEASING ALL THOSE FEELINGS.

FRED ROGERS ACKNOWLEDGED KIDS HAVE FEELINGS AS IMPORTANT AND BIG AS ADULT FEELINGS.

MOST ADULTS THINK KIDS FEELINGS ARE LITTLE AND UNIMPORTANT.  YOU SHOULDN'T FEEL THAT.  WRONG.

10:23 CUPERTINO LIBRARY.  I BOUGHT CROISSANTS AND DOUGHNUTS ON CLEARANCE.  I HAVE CHOICES.  I CAN TAKE THEM HOME OR LEAVE THEM UNDER WET SWIMSUIT.  I JUST THOUGHT OF IT.  I PARKED IN THE SHADE AND I CAN PARK UNDERGROUND AT MLIB.  OR SHADE AT ST J.  TODAY'S THE LUNCH.  GINNY INSISTS.  SHE'S KIND OF BOSSY.  AT 95 I GUESS IT'S SERVED HER WELL.

I FOUND TWO QUARTERS IN PAY PHONE.  MY ANGELS ANSWERED WHETHER STILL THERE.  TYGJ ANGEL CHOIR.

I HAVE MY EARBUDS AND CAN WATCH YOU TUBE.

had to turn in chrome.  AT MLIB.

AND I'M BACK.  I KNEW THERE WERE 3 CHROME AVAILABLE BUT "DENNIS" DIDN'T BOTHER TO CHECK WHEN I REQUESTED A CHROME.  I CHECKED MY ACCOUNT B4 LEAVING AND ANOTHER COPY OF NEIGHBOR FOR 3 WEEKS.  TYGJ.

I WENT ONLINE TO PAY CITI.  I TRIED THE ATM AND NOW IT REQUIRES PASSWORD.  I HAD IT TAPED TO DOOR AT HOME.  I CALLED CUSTOMER SERVICE MISSY NO HELP.  SHE LIED IT WAS ALWAYS REQUIRED.  BS.  I'VE BEEN PAYING FOR MONTHS AT ATM.  I HAD MULTIPLE BILLS BECAUSE IT REJECTS SO MANY.  IT'S SO PARTICULAR.  I WAS RATTLED.  STILL CLEARING.




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