MY BODY IS RELEASING TRAUMAS. I CAN HEAR MOM THREATENING TO KILL US. I'M REMEMBERING HER CHASING AILEEN BEATING HER WITH A BROOM WHILE MITZI AND I HIDE UNDER THE KITCHEN TABLE. MITZI WAS 3. AILEEN HAD A BOYFRIEND. MOM CLAIMED AILEEN WAS BOY CRAZY BUT IT WAS PROJECTION. MOM ALWAYS CHOSE MEN AND RESENTED I HADN'T BEEN HER SON. HOW MANY TIMES DID I HAVE TO LISTEN TO HER DISAPPOINTMENT.
WE'RE LIVING ON LAWRENCE STATION ROAD. WHERE WAS DAD?
7:27 AM-AT THE SENIORS I'M MAKING IT A POINT TO LISTEN TO LOUISE. IT'S HARD STAYING POSITIVE WITH CERTAIN PEOPLE AROUND. I'M PUZZLING. I BROUGHT AUNTY'S CARD BUT FORGOT THE PENCIL SHARPENER. I'LL DO IT LATER.
I TOOK MY TIME MAKING EATING OATMEAL. I NEED MORE FUN I HAVE NOTHING/NO ONE TO LIVE FOR. MAYBE THAT'S THE POINT. TO LIVE FOR MYSELF. HEALING MYSELF. AS PART OF THE PLANET I'M HEALING THE PLANET.
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