Monday, April 8, 2019

OF COURSE

I'M STILL DEPRESSED.  MY BACK IS A LITTLE BETTER BUT MY CIRCUMSTANCES ARE UNCHANGED.  I'M GRATEFUL MY BACK IS BETTER.  I'M FEELING FRUSTRATED AND THWARTED BY MYSELF.

I'M MISSING ERIC.  THE YOUNGER BROTHER I NEVER HAD.  HIS TWO YEAR DEATH 6/13 /2017, JUST 61 YEARS 10 DAYS.  MOM WAS 80 YEARS 12 DAYS.  EACH DEATH REMINDS ME OF THE OTHERS'.  DAD'S DEATH A YEAR 8 MONTHS BEFORE AT 79.  THE DAY SHE DIED I HEARD MOM YELLING AT HIM ABOUT HIS TOOTHPICKS LYING EVERYWHERE IN THE HOUSE. 

MY SISTERS' BETRAYAL ANOTHER FORM OF DEATH.  WHO I THOUGHT THEM TO BE IS DEAD FOREVER LINKED TO MOM'S UNHAPPY LIFE.


No comments:

Post a Comment