Saturday, August 24, 2019

I FORGOT

AGAIN.  I TOOK DOWN AND FOLDED THE LAUNDRY SANS BACK BRACE.  I'M SO MUCH STRONGER NOW I DIDN'T GET SICK JUST NIGHTMARES, INSOMNIA AND PAIN.  I STRETCHED IT ALL OUT.

I'VE COME A LONG WAY.  I COULDN'T TAKE THE HEAT AND SUFFERED GOING TO THE AIR CONDITIONED MALLS UNTIL EXHAUSTED, TO THE CAR TO REST AND THEN BACK TO AIR CONDITIONING.  MY BACK AND BODY WAS CONSTANTLY INFLAMED ON FIRE.  THEN I WENT TO THE LIBRARY TAKING FOOD SINCE I HAD LIMITED ENERGY TO GO OUT.  I WAS ALWAYS EXHAUSTED.  I WOKE UP TIRED AND MISERABLE.  MY ENERGY WENT DOWN FROM THERE.

TAKING CARE OF THE FAMILY ALMOST LITERALLY WORE ME OUT, KILLED  ME.  MY MOM'S THREATS ALMOST CAME TRUE.  I CAN'T REMEMBER A TIME SHE WASN'T THREATENING TO KILL US.  SOMETIMES I WISHED SHE WOULD GET IT OVER WITH SO I DIDN'T HAVE TO HEAR IT.  TALK ABOUT WORDS HURTING.

6 PM.  HAPPY CHILD.  I HAD 2 LITTLE BACON CHEESE BURGERS AND HALF THE FRIES WHILE WATCHING AN EXCITING CLOSER.  FOR LUNCH I ATE A BREAKFAST BURRITO JR AND A BAG OF BBQ KETTLE CHIPS A SMALL COKE.  LOVELY DAY.  I PARKED MY CAR IN THE SHADE AND RESTED ALL DAY.  BEA AND JUSTIN AND JOHN AT ST JUSTIN RESPECT ME. 

ALL THE DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD.


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