i somehow changed the chrome format. no headers until cursor at top and no bottom until cursor on bottom. no distractions. no idea what i did or how to reverse it. i forgot chrome at home. my fear of mistakes linked to mom killing me. everything i failed she threatened to kill me. when she came at me with shears to get off the phone i could feel the hatred.
depression could be from ex marriage. i was never lonelier or more isolated. he was the sum total of my family. i voluntarily married self destruction not knowing any better. suicides.
i'm in bed. doris was 6 months bedridden when she fractured her tailbone.
yesterday i forgot spare car key at home today chrome due to depression. wonder if mom was depressed. would explain her short sighted stupidity. i can hear her complaining she never had nice things. dad would always sabotage her. every time.
5:30 pm format changed back. i watched jay leno trying to give away money.
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