MY FEAR AND DREAD REGARDING THE EYE APPOINTMENT IS ABOUT DAD'S CATARACT REMOVAL. I DROVE HIM AND MOM TO KAISER SANTA TERESA. HE HAD AN ALLERGIC REACTION TO THE TRANQUILIZER. WE CALL AILEEN AND MITZI. TOOK THEM 4 HOURS TO REVIVE HIM. HE SEEMED OK.
I TAKE THEM HOME. I'M PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTED. ON THE ONE HAND DAD LET ME SLEEP ON THE OTHER HAND HE WAS WARNED NOT TO LEAN FORWARD TO AVOID PRESSURE ON HIS EYE. SO OF COURSE HE LEANS OVER TO PICK UP THE TV REMOTE FALLS FORWARD HITS HIS EYE ON THE SOFA ARM REST. INSTEAD OF WAKING ME LIKE HE DID COUNTLESS TIMES FOR A MIDNIGHT CAR RIDE HE WAITS 'TIL THE NEXT MORNING HIS EYE FILLED WITH BLOOD PERMANENTLY BLINDING HIMSELF.
I'M FEELING SO SAD. I NEVER HAD TIME TO PROCESS GOING FROM ONE CRISIS TO THE NEXT. NOW MY STOMACH, BACK, EVERYTHING IS RESPONDING.
SAD AND RELIEVED. COMING AND GOING IN WAVES. EXHAUSTING
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