Wednesday, December 29, 2021

15 minutes in to beautiful day

when Lloyd is looking so confused and hurt i know what he's feeling.  been there.  still feel that way some times.  i suppose i need to honor that.  watching 'beautiful day' fourth time.  

my stomach was upset getting calmer.  i ate meat loaf and bread for b'fast.  bit of porridge.  but it's probably the emotions upset.  i kept eating vitamin c candies.  probably 6.  better.

i'm going to seniors later.  i'm being gentler with myself.  not pushing as hard.  what would my life had been if i'd been lead instead of pushed?  no one talks about the parents or figures that produce a mr. rogers or temple grandin.  mr. rogers asks lloyd 'who loved him to become the man he is.'  

i enjoy waiting for toke and chatting as we go to our cars.  went sunny vale library to eat lunch, compute, charge since closed tomorrow.  and then to gym 2 i felt pretty well rested.  home 5 pm.  glad dinner pre cooked.  feeling tired.

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