animal behavior is basic. when animals misbehave there are reasons. people misbehave and don't know why they do what they know not to do and do it anyway. alien ex and nit.
i left ex because i knew i didn't want to be part of the destruction and i was unequipped to do anything with the lying cheating self sabotaging going on. every 6 months he was afraid he'd get fired for over stepping his authority at work. he lied to two therapists for 2 years and i was done. he decided he was right the world was wrong and i gave my best that wasn't enough for him. i knew enough that somehow i contributed to the unhealthy codependency. i didn't know what it was.
cesar is so clear and precise in his observations and gets results. mammals learn and function based on programmed behaviors supporting survival. humans have intelligence to change their behaviors if they become aware. cesar lamented having to couple counsel the dog's owners.
i stopped a lifetime of smoking last year. no longer serves me. i used to need it. i was born to it. dad chained smoke. mom lit his smokes. quitting used to be difficult. free nicotine gum and covid isolation removed chaos. the physical and psychological need.
so good. i made 1 1/2 c mac in 'pasta and more' teaspoon salt add water first line 17 minutes. small diced one celery stalk grated small carrot. found safflower mayo 1 cup. 1 salt 4 black pepper large can tuna with water heaping tablespoon dry onion. half can drained black olives. drained pasta combined. so delicious i wanted to eat it all. i forgot to add peas. tomorrow. extra sweetness. i can make peas onion gravy rice.
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