sitting at main

i was going to senior park and detoured.  sitting here watching the young families i feel so sorry for them.  the good part is they don't know a better, cleaner world when life was fresh.  they can't miss what they don't know.

i'm waiting for my games to load. listening to stress free.  half hour already.  i didn't want to go anywhere and remembered wheel of fortune.  if i wasn't addicted to tv i'd just be a lump.  i wouldn't go anywhere do anything.  

i have to do my stretches or suffer.  kids are skinny and healthy always moving.  

for breakfast i had 6-7 raw asparagus.  so good.  dinner i made mash, pork, sesame asparagus, beans.  i'm eating healthy, exercising.  

i realized watching 'danny says' danny fields knew many famous people striving to share connection and love.  love of music, art, passion.  those who succeed in broadcasting love energy are embraced by the multitude craving love energy.  my first conscious experience was in a church chorus visiting a church with no chorus.  the congregation's love and gratitude almost floored me, hitting me as an almost palpable physical wave.  i felt faint and had to center and calm myself to stand.  

also explains some celebrities (addicts) only feeling alive on stage.  they live on drugs or sex trying to recreate the energy high on stage.  impossible.  the survivors come to realize life is a sine wave with peaks and troughs.  judy garland died too early lacking enough impossible love.  that's how prayer works too.  getting enough people to direct psychic energy.